Looking Back at a Letter I Wrote Myself

As some of you might now, I wrote a post titled Dear Future Me almost a year ago. Well now, I’ll be looking back at it, and writing another letter to the past me that wrote that letter.

I think this is going to be pretty interesting because I haven’t looked at this since the day I posted it.

If you have anything you want to tell your past self, then leave a reply to this post and we can all discuss it together.

Dear Past Rawan,

You started off your letter with your wishes to be happy, and I still wish that for future me. I’m not going to lie to you, I haven’t done very much in that department. 

It’s the beginning of 2017 now, and I still feel the same way. I fucked up a lost last year too, so don’t worry about it. 

Okay, so I haven’t gone to college yet, I’m still a student. Still single, but I’m a mental relationship with Michael Clifford, so don’t worry about that. Still blogging, as you can tell, and Jana and I’s friendship is still going strong. 

I’ve made some really important friends since you last wrote me, and they really did show me things about myself I didn’t know, but most of them are gone now. I guess the closest friendships are the most important, right? I really hope so. 

Music is still a huge part of my life, and my tastes haven’t changed if I’m being honest. I still listen to 5sos and BVB a lot, although I’ve added a couple more onto the list. 

And to answer one of the most important questions on your list, yes I still think that Andy Biersack is a beautiful angel. Just a little FYI, you spelled angel A-N-G-L-E so you might want to go back and check your spelling. 

The cyber bullies stopped for the moment, but you have scarier demons lurking after you right now; trust me. 

I’m still an avid reader, and I’ve actually read about 124 books at the time of me writing this, so I would say books are still a big part of my life. 

I still haven’t gone to college, so I can’t really answer your questions about what direction I’m going in, but I’m still pretty sure I’ll be sticking with law. Although I’m kind of thinking of minoring in English just for the fun of it. 

Writing is kind of like the music thing: I don’t think I’ll ever completely grow out of it. I still journal every so often, and I actually just looked back at my earlier entries yesterday, so you don’t have that much to worry about in that department. 

Although I still love writing, I think I’m having a harder time with blogging, at the moment. It’s kind of harder to pick up my laptop and write the past couple months. I’m working on it, though, so I don’t think it’s going to be much of a problem. 

Ugh, studying. I still work really hard trying to get those straight A’s but it’s more like A+ to C’ s at the moment. I really have to work harder in that department, which is kind of funny because I’m supposed to be studying for my EOT’s right now, but I’m writing. 

I think it’s going to pay off in the end, though, so don’t waste your time worrying. 

Mom and dad are okay I guess. Dad just went on a flight a couple hours ago, but he’s just like he’s always been. Grandma’s still alive, thank god. I don’t think I should go and say hi to mom, I think she’d think I’m crazy if ‘past me’ said hi to her. Sorry. 

Anyways, I’m going to end this now. I know you’re not ging through a good time in your life right now, and I’m not either, but I don’t think it’s time to loose hope just yet. Maybe hold on a bit more and see what happens. I really hope future us finds a happily ever after too. I think she deserved it after all the shit she’s taken. 


Much love, Rawan…